Submitted by eviegirl (not on Tumblr). She was talking about this in chat and I asked her to write this up:
Let me start this by saying I am extremely shy, in every sense of the word. I don’t ask for what I want because I have this strange aversion to speaking up for myself. I hate confrontation and do everything in my power to avoid it.
So to say I was nervous to bring up orgasm control with the new guy I was seeing is an absolute understatement. After some verbal encouragement from the lovely voices in the femsubdenial chatroom, I worked up the nerve to bring it up.
He came over at about 5:30 and only had about a half hour or so to hang out before he had to head home to finish a paper. It’s pretty early in our relationship, so when we’re not out in public, we are pretty much always fooling around. Since time was limited, we decided on a quickie, and soon I was down to nothing but a lace thong.
Before it got any farther, I took a deep breath and said “Um, so, you know what would really turn me on, more than orgasming? You telling me when and if I can come.” I had a hard time time even looking him in the eye, I was so afraid he was going to be freaked out or turned off. He just kind looked at me and cocked his head. He said, “like, you want me to tease you?” The voice in my head started screaming, YES THAT IS EXACTLY WHAT I WANT YOU TO DO. I somehow managed a calm, but shaky, “Yes. That. Or, you know, you deciding when I have an orgasm…or not.”
He looked at me a moment longer and just simply said, “okay.” and we continued where we left off. All of a sudden he turns me over so I’m facing away from him on the bed. He pulled me closer and took my wrists into his left hand and stretched them above my head. He hooked his right leg around mine and pulled my leg towards him. I was, for the most part, immobile and entirely spread open for him.
He started slow, just tracing the fingertips of his right hand around my skin. He would start by fingering the hem of my thong, so so lightly. His hand would drift up towards my chest, but stop just over the bottom of my rib cage.
From the adrenaline of finally getting what I want, mixed with how turned on I was, my entire body was trembling, shaking even harder when his hand got closer to further down the front of my thong. I then felt him breath a chuckle into my ear and say, “someone’s excited.” I should have been embarrassed, but something about him commenting so flippantly about the state I was in drove me even higher. He then grabbed onto the fabric of my thong and pulled it upward. I had no choice but to grind shamelessly into the fabric, finally getting some needed friction against my clit. Again, I felt his breath on my neck as he laughed quietly at my desperate attempt for touch.
He unhooked his leg and pulled the thong all the way down, and immediately got back into position, holding me completely open and exposed. He started to circle my clit with his thumb, slowly and lazily. His touches were so light and so slow, that at one point, I was afraid he had fallen asleep. I choked out a breathless “are you okay?”. He responded with a firm, “hush”. I bit down on my lip and tried to control my breathing.
Finally he pushed just the very tip of his index finger into me, just enough to make me want more. His circling thumb became a little more firm and fast. I had been so aroused this entire time, that my clit had become so sensitive and the pad of his thumb was right on top of it. I tried to moved my hips away from his hand and said, “that’s too much.” Without missing a beat, he responded, “you can handle it.” and continued his movement without stopping or slowing.
The tone, the words, and his touches brought be right to the edge of an orgasm. I gasped and got out, “I’m going to come.” He leaned closer to my ear and in a mocking tone, said, “…oh, are you?”. Immediately I felt him take his hand away.
The ache. Oh god, this impossible feeling of delicious emptiness and need that makes words useless just overcame me. I blinked a few times and tried to press my thighs together. Impossible, as he kept me spread wide open, all the while laughing in my ear. He knew what he was doing, and the only option I had was to let him.
After a few deep breaths, his hand returned in full force, shoving two fingers in me and resuming his circles on my clit. Twicemore he stopped right as I got to the edge. Or was it three times? I was at the point of not being able to count higher than “oh god please”. Finally, when I thought my muscles were going to burst from my skin with tension, I managed to get out a pathetic, “please.” Yes. I begged.
He leaned in and whispered, “come, baby” and I crashed into an orgasm I’m not likely to soon forget. He helped me ride it out and then slowed his touch to a stop, all the while covering me in kisses and light nips. After getting my breath back to a normal speed and sound, he looked at me and said with a smile, “that was fun.”
I think this one’s a keeper.